Photographic excuse

Nikolai Bakharev, Unintitled #14 from the series Relations, 1980, MAMM, Moscow, Collection of the House of Photography Museum

Somehow this image was beautiful enough to post, or at least it is beautiful to me. It reminded me of the holidays spent at the sea side when i was young and there are a few similar to this one of my parents and me, in black and white from those times.

I’m back in London at the moment, but it has been a strange couple of weeks, with more travel than i have done in a year. Family is back to stable and for that i am thankful, but it has been scary time with increasing worries about their health, distance and so on. It brings back many memories of my childhood as well, good ones but it also makes the present a bit sad. I wonder if we enjoyed those times as much as we should have, i worry about the times ahead and wish for impossible things to make them better… It feels too early for the good times to be in the past. And it seems at a distance all we do is worry about each other. Within reason that is and not surprisingly since barely they were back to ok i caught the flu and lay flat. Back to work at the moment but more out of necessity than will.

But all i wanted this weekend was my bed.. over the last few week all i had were tickets that got returned to the theatres and opera houses and there will be more as i’m back to some business travel in 2 weeks from now. Last week’s exhausting 10-11h slug a day reminded me of what my life used to be like until a few years ago. And made me wonder how i kept it up for the years that i did. I used to thrive on travel and new places but this time all i craved was a decent night’s sleep back in my own bed within my own walls, speaking English or rather not speaking at all. I admire people who work in call centres, how do they keep the energy up? After hours of talking to people, trying to understand what they do, pay attention, digest the information, be ‘on’ all the time and in a foreign language all i wanted was silence.

I remembered why i missed out on years of TV and film because once again i didn’t even look for the TV remote for the whole week. And i realised i’ve become a spoiled brat where food is concerned living in London! One week of just 2 choices of places to eat and limited budget drove me to utter frustration. I can’t believe how much i’ve taken accessible variety of food for granted… It may seem silly to complain but when you work all day and all you see is an office and the hotel, food becomes the only distraction in the day and its importance increases exponentially! And food places are places to interact with the locals too, which i have always enjoyed. I’ve travelled alone very often and have never been bothered by the fact. The experience has almost always been very pleasant 🙂 And exercising one’s language muscles is always a bonus. This was one case where i was happy not to be alone and have somebody else to talk to as the locals were everything but welcoming. Bit sad, as one of the pleasures of travel is to try and integrate for a short while, do what the locals do 🙂

But it wasn’t all bad, turns out the local cantine at the office had the best fresh croissants i have ever eaten, certified by the locals as well, and the advantage of the early riser was that we always got in before the cue formed.

little comforts come in simple packages sometimes: freshly baked croissant with 70% fruit apricot jam! yum!

In other thoughts, it has been spring around here, i just have to find the right theme so i can show you pics of flowers 😉 Doesn’t really fit with the moaning theme, all to frequent around here lately, apologies!

I hope this virus will go away soon, same for the business travel, so i can have more time to myself for music and theatre and film projects and more unproductive musing rather than moaning. Sorry this is a long and not very useful or informative post. I just wanted to share an update, even if not much substance in it. I’m not short on interest by any means, just a bit lacking in time and energy.


The image above is from one of the 4 nominees for this year’s Deutsche Börse Photography Prize: Nikolai Bakharev, Zanele Muholi, Viviane Sassen, Mikhael Subotzky & Patrick Waterhouse. The exhibition with the works of the 4 nominees can be seen at the Photographer’s Gallery in London for free until the 7th of June and the prize winner is announced on the 28th of May.

I’ll leave you with another interesting picture from a nominee below.

Coil, from the series Soil, 2014 © Viviane Sassen

There is a good review of the exhibition in the Guardian. I hope to be able to visit it soon..

24 thoughts on “Photographic excuse

  1. Kopf hoch und gute Besserung, fühl Dich ganz lieb und fest gedrückt!!! Hoffe, Du kommst zur Ruhe und kannst wieder ins Normalleben mit Musik, Oper, Theater zurückkehren. Und ja!! der Frühling kommt 🙂
    Wie geht es eigentlich Deinem Vater?

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    • danke sehr, heute war ich zum ersten Mal nicht mehr ganz soooo mude, also muss es heissen dass ich den Kampf gegen den Virus gewinne 😉 jetzt muss ich noch den Husten unter Kontrolle bekommen!
      Mein Vater ist besser, Sicht etwas verschwommen, Nachuntersuchung kommt in ungef mehr als einer Woche, aber es entwickelt sich gut, kann sein dass er wieder eine Brille tragen muss , mit wenig Dioptrie, aber es muss sich alles erst gut stabilisieren bis sie eine Brille machen lassen, sonst musst nach kurzer Zeit ne andere her. Also gute Zeichen, aber es muss alles halt immer im Auge behalten werden. Lieben Dank fur de Nachfrage. 🙂
      Hoffe Prufungen laufen gut und Interviews auch, wann sind sie denn?

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      • Hört sich ja schon ganz positiv an mit den Augen Deines Vaters. Drücke fest die Daumen, dass es sich noch verbessert!
        Die Prüfungen laufen gut, auch wenn er heute wohl Probleme hatte sich zu konzentrieren. Aber Englisch kann er (im gegensatz zu mir) und so mache ich mir keinen Kopf. Interview gestern war sehr gut, allerdings ist das ein 30-40 Stunden Job, eigentlich zu viel. Und ich müsste schon früher anfangen als ich tatsächich kann 😦 Mal sehen ob sie mich zum 2. Gespräch einladen….. Montag ist ein weiteres Interview, Dienstag die letzte Matheprüfung für meinen “kleinen” ❤
        Und Dir gute Besserung!!! Schlag den Husten!

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        • Prufungen sind sehr ermudend, bald ist alles vorbei, hoffe er hat ne kurze Pause vor der Mathe.. Ach freue mich das das Gesprach gut lief, mann kann nie wissen, Arbeitszeiten usw lassen sich manchmal arrangieren wenn beide Seiten interesssiert sind, Drucke weiterhin die Daumen, Kopf hoch! Irland wartet am Ende der Monsterwoche 😉

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  2. Photographs are always a great excuse ;-). Good to hear that the situation at home seems to have calmed down. And commiserations on the worries that continue to go along with that. I’d love to reassure you, but my own experience tells me that being apart from parents as they grow older is a difficult situation to be in.
    Hope you are getting a little breather, though, before you set off travelling again.
    And that exhibition sounds very promising/exciting. If I hadn’t used up my travel budget for the next ten years, I’d hop on a plane and make a day trip to see it. At least I got to catch the annual Taylor Wessing expo in December…

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    • yes they are 🙂
      Yes, i realised that years ago i just wanted to fly away but sometimes we don’t think all that far, feeling free seems more important.. Just something we have to learn to live with one way or another. I hope so too, that things will stay stable for a while..
      And yes i hope no more work travel in the next month, not keen on it. On the upside in spite of stupid cold the vitamins and loads of fruit seems to have worked, i did manage to stay away almost all winter and i seem to be doing less bad than other times, apart from the cough. But sometimes we can’t avoid overstreching ourselves a bit 🙂
      Yes, i will see how cold goes and maybe i get there this weekend, if not thankfully still plenty of weeks to go and lucky for me it is free. I also have a session on landscape photography scheduled with the club at work next week, just what a need with the upcoming trip and with my hands on the new camera! biggest frustration about stupid cold was not to be able to be out and about playing around with it!

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      • Oh yes, the new camera!!! Hope you’ll get some time off soon to play with it. For the session on landscape photography with the club – are you going on location with them to put into practice what you have learnt? Looking forward to seeing the results.

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        • this is indoors chat and then off to practice, the do proper field trips every year, this year Cornwall but i couldn’t join due to timing this year. Also missed out on fashion shoot last Saturday due to cold ggrrr but the chat should be a good sessions for starters like me 🙂

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    • Thank you, it is hard to be at a distance or have to leave when you feel you should stay. But things are better now, thankfully and hopefully will stay like this for a while.
      And i probably crossed all European virus-zones back and forth by plane and train in just one week, something was bound to stick 😉 Looking forward to the downtime at weekend and hopefully less talking which should cut the cough 🙂
      hugs back x


  3. I’m so sorry — so many of these things are known to me from my own life: worry about family, too far away, yet not desiring to close the gap, one’s relationship with prepared food, just wanting to be silent and go to bed. I hope the breaking spring gives you some relaxation. Hugs.

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    • sorry you were coming down with a bug too! it really helps to be able to relate to what other people have felt in similar situations. It’s not easy to accept there is no permanent solution and we just have to work with things as they are. Ups and downs 🙂
      I hope spring will be back soon, winter is revisiting, nastyyyy
      Many hugs back! weekend coming soon to relieve us all a bit 🙂 x

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  4. I love your photos and especially your croissant. Personally, I never thrived on travel and always have found it a strain, in spite of its great rewards. Sometimes just facing an alien world outdoors can be a huge effort. Hope you feel better soon and can get back to enjoying your shows!

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    • oh i love knowing i’m going somewhere but there is a huge difference between travel for fun and travel for business… ages does play a role. I never thought i’d want to slow down and stay put more but i really do 🙂 I am still so excited about the 10 day trip to Scotland though 🙂 hope we haven’t planned too much in too little time, glups 🙂
      I’m being naughty and getting out tomorrow to see a play, just hoping i can control the cough or else i will have to leave.. fingers crossed but will be good over the weekend, nothing planned until next Friday 😉
      thanks for alleviating cold induced frustration with yummy reading 🙂 x

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        • in Scotland? 2 stints in Edi at the beginning and end of journey, can’t wait to be back, used to live there for 3 very happy years 🙂 From there train to Inverness, along the national park/reservation and from Inverness we’ll do day tours to Skye and historical sights, Inverness itself of course too, castles, ruins, fascinating stories old and new and i’m hoping to revisit incredible highland landscapes. It was hard to choose, especially since the friend i’m going with has never been to Scotland yet but i think we got the balance right between seeing as much as we can without it just being a flurry of places 🙂 I haven’t been as excited about a trip since i’ve taken my parents for a 10 day trip to Florence a few years ago 🙂

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          • That sounds so wonderful. I’ve not been to Scotland but if I went, I would choose your itinerary. I’d especially like to see Edinburgh, being a fan of Alexander McCall Smith’s novels of the city. They’re a bit twee but I love them anyway 🙂

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            • i love it, if i could have the theatre and opera i have here up there i’d move back.. but i can’t… it may sound silly but a part of me will always be Scottish i think, it will always be part of me, i just adore the place, the people, the accents, the smells, everything 🙂 It is the only time i felt heartbroken to leave a place.. And it is reliably ancient 😉 to not change on me too much 🙂

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  5. Share your feeling entirely. Despite the great time you might have in travelling and mixing with the locals it all comes to that: yearn for silence and peacefulness. No need to speak or listen or chat and entertain, just being all alone sipping your tea.
    Take care!

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    • Thank you, you know exactly what i mean. stopping for a breather is really necessary and good for the soul too 🙂
      And what would we do without tea???? :-))) we’re due another one as soon as you come to London again! 🙂


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